Hongster never die , tiongxim is a lie

so there is this guy who like me in my class & almost half of the people in my class know . & guess what ? my friend caught red handed . i was just passing by that guy , & i saw him with another girl siting super close & take photo like the girl sit on his lap machiam like couple around their friends . At that time when i saw , i told myself i wont trust guys anymore . After that lesson , after that hurt what my ex did to me , i no longer believe in love anymore . I even push away a guy who really care for me , love me more than himself . But he confess to me at the wrong timing . Its hurts me a little when he said he wanna forget me , forget everything . I dont wanna lost him as a friend at all . If only he didnt fall for me , we could be like how we used to . The reason why i didnt wanted to accept him despite how much he do for me is because i couldnt forget my another ex that i been together with him for 2 years & 2 month . but now , everything is gone . People change , memories stay . he left me without a valid reason . he wasnt like those guys out there but i dont know why he wanted to leave me . To be honest i really miss him alot . he finally admit he misses me & all . but when i asked him if we can start afresh , he dont want . How i wish i could read his mind .